been lookin’ so long

“And so, as I sleep, some dream beguiles me, and suddenly I know I am dreaming. Then I think: This is a dream, a pure diversion of my will; and now that I have unlimited power, I am going to cause a tiger.” – Jorge Luis Borges, Dreamtigers

music and words
I’ve been lookin’ so long I can’t even find my eyes.
don’t matter what anyone else says
do what you want
even if it gets you know where.
sometimes it’s the only thing that means anything?
see. I’ve been bustin’ it…
I’ve busted it.
and I’ve put it all back together.
sometimes you wonder if there’s a girl on the other end
sometimes you wonder if she’s just a lover
sometimes you wonder if there’s anything real in yourself
and sometimes you find out that you get exactly what you want
in’
exactly the way you never expected to get it.
Whatever
 the outcome is,
you’re there. Where ever you find yourself
standin’
right in the middle of a song.
And that’s why I write’em.
I’m just a slag bag wip wop in and out down
and in kinda thing when I really get
 down to it.
and so here’s my shirt, my coat, my bag,
wear it
and carry the slack.
it’s time to go home.
It’s time
 to leave.
it’s time to put some music on the record player.
gotta be at peace
and that first demon goes down. hard.
it’s time to give yourself something
Somewhere down the line.
somewhere in the next room pirates are drinkin’ and swapin’ stories.
That’s the way it goes.
But what ever you want to do, just know you’re goin’ out fast.
Fast as a candle under a flame.
So make yourself famous.
Sing a good song or learn to count.
see yourself in the mirror or go be yourself.
ruffle up or find a cheap motel room.
And paint a masterpiece.